Maybe it’s the time of year, the weather, the week I spent away from SL, or just my usual overthinking, but I keep coming back to trying to figure out my purpose in SL lately. I don’t want to make it a bigger deal than it is, but it’s been on my mind so much that I figured I should at least post some of my thoughts and see if that helps anything come together. I guess this is the intro to another of my 15-minute off-the-cuff posts. Stream of consciousness for the win!

Basically, I like to dabble and explore. I enjoy documenting all of that with blog posts and screenshots, and I like setting up special shots to convey a feeling or capture a moment. Spending time with my friends is always great, but I also like time to myself either working on projects or simply shopping or walking around an area. Concerts are a lot of fun, and I’ve been trying to branch out and hear more new people as well as going back to my favorites like Keiko.

I’m so not a Photoshop guru, but I like playing there and working on new eyes and even trying my hand at textures for the things I’ve been building like the sculpted prim photo props I’ve been playing with in various programs and the big photo prop builds like the huge jewelry box I never mentioned for some reason but used as the stage for some ballerina/doll photos and the small items I’ve been creating for friends and family as gifts here and there. The props would be even more fun with custom poses/animations, so yeah, I’ve been giving that a whirl again, and then on top of that, some components would be great if they were scripted for this or that, so there’s some scripting love going on too. And of course, it’s SL, so there’s shopping and putting together outfits.

There’s no one thing that’s my thing, and I’m bothered by that for some reason. I put too much pressure on myself to be productive when in reality SL is my place where I can just be. I can create if I want. I can dance if I want. I can explore and shop and take photos if I want. I can just dress up and hang out in the sky with my best friend and chat if I want.

So what do I want to do? A little bit of everything, I guess, and there’s nothing wrong with that, and I don’t even have to be good at it. I don’t have to be anything. That’s the key. I like having Shine and selling eyes there and maybe even selling some of the other little odds and ends I’ve been making and will continue to make, but selling and marketing myself is never going to be my emphasis. It’s not who I am, and it’s not what my SL experience needs to be no matter how much some weird voice in my head tries to make me feel bad about that.

I think that brings us back to the way of the awesome all over again. What awesome thing do I want to do today? I want to just be me and not beat myself up for it. Funny how SL really brings me to the big lesson. Like I’ve always said, I’m just me wherever you meet me. Thanks for being with me on the journey.