I have a problem. It’s really hard for me to talk about myself. You’d think it wouldn’t be such a big deal since I do have a blog and all, but I struggle a lot with what I want to blog. In fact I do it so much that I’ve thought about just shutting the whole thing down more than once, but I like having it around, so it stays.

I’ve been making stuff and learning new things, and I just feel weird talking about any of it. And I know I’ve talked about this before, so even now, I’m mentally berating myself for going on about it again. This is me though, and it’s what you get. I’m told that I’m pretty much the best me ever, so that’s good.

One thing I’ve been doing lately is playing in Photoshop and creating textures for various things. It’s very meditative for me, and I love seeing how the textures sometimes look completely different in SL than what I expected because those “mistakes” spark other ideas and just kind of build on each other. Some of this playing around led to my latest series of eyes. I’m calling them Cathedral because Kavar said they reminded him of glass, and then him saying that made me think of the stained glass windows in my parents’ church. Like my last series, they’re not on Xstreet yet, but you can find them all in my section at Exile. I’ll try to have them on Xstreet soon too.

There was a blog challenge recently to talk about the people who inspire you, and I did a tribute post about Hethr Engle, one of my favorite fashion bloggers, over on the Exile website. That’s where most of my fashiony stuff gets put these days.

I’m sure this next bit surprises no one who is reading this, but Kavar is another person who inspires me. Who was the person who encouraged me to start playing with the eye template? The one who pushed me to try making the things I wanted but couldn’t find? The one whose rezday inspired me to make my first piece of jewelry? The one whose rl birthday pushed me to try Zbrush so that I could make a sculpty that I needed for the bracelet I wanted to make for him? The guy who bonks me on the head when I lose faith in myself or start worrying too much about what other people will think? Yeah, that would be Kavar. My SL would be completely different without him, and if I’m doing my job well, then he already knows that, but still it needed to be said again.